Lost my Dad the first time to gangs & drugs. Watched my momma struggle on welfare. Single-mother raising 3 babies on her own. No education, minimum wage income, but she did it. We lived in our car, we lived with family/friends. Food stamps, 4 of us in one bed, cramped studio. An angel opened her arms to me. Lived with her for my last two years of high school – lived apart from my mom and brothers for 2 years. Got accepted into UCLA. First-generation college student, record high 112,000 applicants and 17% acceptance rate in 2015, and I was one of few who were chosen. Two scholarships granted me a full-ride at UCLA. Started with UCLA’s FSP program, did swell. Started my first quarter, sank a bit. Second year I was on academic probation. Suffered from depression, anxiety, homesickness. Changed my major to study my passion for literature rather than being pressured into the STEM field to pursue medicine – you can be a master of many trades, just let your heart guide you. Third year, successfully off probation, life began to mend together. I decided on Physician Assistant (PA) school after 3 years of battling what others wanted for me versus what I wanted for myself and my happiness. I broke many chains away from me. Then, the most tragic event turned my world upside down. I always thought my father was invincible. I lost my Dad to a bullet. I had grown so strong while feeling so weak. I finished my third year that Spring quarter amidst not wanting to wake up each morning because the pain and tears were so unbearable – I sought God and therapy for healing. I never imagined myself planning, directing, and executing a funeral for my Dad. I cannot even remember what happened over the days of the services because I was in such a daze, a blur, a zombie state. This pain is eternal. Our time on earth is precious and limited – live it, love it, cherish your loved ones. I graduated from the #1 public university in the country. Interned for the #7 nationally ranked hospital. Connected with so many amazingly successful people. Discovered a world of wealth and privilege that I will soon develop for my family. Fruitful opportunities – crème of the crop experiences. I am grateful for all the love and support that has kept me motivated – emotionally, physically, mentally, financially. You know who you all are, and I thank God for bringing you into my life! The end to this undergraduate chapter at UCLA does not mean life gets any easier. Challenges will continue, but I will gracefully accept them. My Dad is always here with me, I feel him everywhere. God is always on my side & yours even when it may not seem like it.
I am a proud Bruin. Born and raised in Whittier, CA. Thank you UCLA, for transforming me into this woman and preparing me for the bigger plans that are destined for me.
Love u Cuzn! I'm so proud of u and what u have accomplished due to the loss of ur dad! Keep thriving always look forward we are here for u! ❤ Call me anytime ROLL TIDE! Lol! Ur mom has my Number Love u
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DeleteMy queen, my beautiful niece! I am extremely proud of you and all your accomplishments! When your dad passed I was so worried but what could have broke you only made you stronger! Your dad is always with you! As your Tia I’m always here for you no matter what it is I’ll help in anyway possible! And no matter what I’ll always support you and your dreams! Mija I know you will achieve your goals!!! I love you with all my heart!!! ������������
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